Thinking of what had happened throughout the week and realized that it is a hectic week for me. Things happened to me faster than an F1 car would zoom past me. As of today, I have confirmed a few things:
1) I am quitting - I realized that I am not happy in my current capacity as an event organizer, accounts personnel, sales executive, marketing officer and membership consultant in my current company. I think that I cannot achieve what I want, or I thought I could. I admit: This job gave me many 'first' times, many experiences that cannot be found elsewhere, but it is not enough to satisfy me - I do not feel a sense of purpose nor achievement over here.
I noticed that I am starting to dread going to office, trying to convince myself that everything is OK and that I can get on with the chores and dreads that comes with it. But I cannot! Thus, I think leaving would be the best option.
2) I Want to be myself again - In the past, many people will describe me as happy-go-lucky, a man without any worries and/or trouble and a person who is able to sort things out. Recently, many said I looked troubled, looking tired and not as passionate in what I do.
I believe that my 1st decision will ultimately lead me to have the 2nd one very soon.
Lunch today was at this eating place that have very nice duck meat. I was like so happy with the duck meat. Ordered for 2 persons (my colleague Amanda was there as well), cost me $14.20. Fantastic duck meat. If you ever pass by Raffles Place area, must try. The triple layer meat is also good. This stall is highly recommended by my Colleague: Ms Amanda C
Tonight, going to eat KFC with my family. Want to eat the 'Hot Devil' drumlets.
Tomorrow is Public Holiday, so can catch the Champions' League at the kopitiam tonight.. yeah!
*The resignation letter is like a cheque: Non-Negotiatable*
Feeling so down and depressed! I am just amazed at what is unfolding right in front of me.
Fri, 26 Sept 2008:
Had lunch with Jiayi at Crystal Jade Tampines Mall. Ordered many things: Prawn Dumplings, Chee Cheong Fun, Char Siew Pao, Mixed Meat and Yang Chow Fried Rice! This is one of the best lunch that I had for a long time. We enjoyed the roasted pork (Jiayi's Fave) and the fried rice was surprisingly good. However, the char siew pao could be improved as it can be pretty dry. My favorite would have to be the chee cheong fun - because I love the sauce.
Jiayi is a cute girl though she may appear to be sleeping when she talk to you, but a very natural and down-to-earth person. She have a very 'policeman' boyfriend who will monitor her every move. I thought that she would make a good wife but she is taken - so too bad.
Dinner was alright. The cable car dining, also known as 'Sky Dining', was not as good as I thought. The format of the dinner was also not as good as I am stuck in the cable car for a good 2 hours.
Starter was Salad with Smoked Salmon and Cream of Tomato Soup. The smoked salmon was not that fantastic as there is the 'fishy' stance that comes with it. As for the tomato soup, it has a sourish after taste after the first sip. It is also not an exact compliment with the salad, which I thought was weird.
The mix-up came when the waiters cleared my plates and gave me the red wine (Gin Merlot) without the main course. Ended up sitting in the cable car for 30 minutes - hungry and grumbling. Upon reaching the base station, the crew wanted to serve dessert.
Main course was Pan-Fried Salmon with Tomato Jus and Mashed Potato. The salmon taste was masked by the sauce, which prevented the taste of the salmon to be tasted. As for my partner of the day, she had Roasted Chicken Thigh and Grilled Potato. I had a taste of the chicken and thought that it was a bit medium-rare kind.
Dessert was Brownie with Chocolate Cream. By far, this is one of the worst Brownie I had tasted for awhile. The cake was dry and the chocolate sauce that accompanied it made the whole cake too chocolatey and hard to swallow without the occasional sip of water. The only positive thing about the experience was the tea - as it was LIPTON tea!
Overall, I would not recommend couple for a meal like this because:
1) as the candle is not bright, eating could be a problem, especially during the main course;
2) on a hot and humid night wearing long sleeve (formal attire), you would feel sticky and uneasy all over
3) the price S$197.70 NETT per couple is not really that worth its while.
Went St James thereafter, after a break of 3 weeks, and had a happy time there. Managed to catch a glimpse of Kovalainen in the process.
Went home at 3am.
Sat, 27 Sept 2008:
Woke up to find myself tired and having a headache. Went for lunch with my grandparents. It was also on this day that I made 2 major decisions:
1) I told the girl straight to the face that she is not meant for me and that me and her are better off as friends.
2) I will be quitting from my current job, come what may. I think that I am better at some other companies.
---> Pay is never a factor in me finding a job. I believe in happiness. Health is always more important than wealth. I rather have the ability to spend the money than the ability to earn it but spend it on medical fees. Being happy is vital for a more wholesome lifestyle, and as I see it, I would never be able to get the happiness if I continue in this job.
Afternoon and we went to Selegie Singapore Pools to catch the Everton vs Liverpool game. Liver pool won 2-0 and I was a happy fan for once. Took full advantage of the situation to go St James (for the last time for this month) and finish the remaining portion of my alcohol.
Went home at 2.17am, amid baffling circumstances...
Sun, 28th September 2008:
Was thinking, why is it that some people could be happy with living off people, even though he/she is earning money and working longer than I do:
I have this friend who always go for soccer games and clubbing with me. However, whenever we go he would not make any payment i.e. I am the one who will make payment. He would always wait for people to make payment and then will 'act blur' and not bother about it. Thus, I decided to ask him if he could pay me back the amount that was due all this while.
Throughout the whole period, we ordered 18 bottles of drink + numerous food eating. I decided to be nice and charge him $440 (4 bottles + food) and text him on his mobile. Guess what he say?
"Brother, I will not pay you cause you invite me there. So why should I pay? I will only pay you the money for yesterday's outing. The rest, I am sorry ar... I will not pay. And that is the end of our brotherhood."
At that moment, I was so pissed off. I was like WTF. So I told him ok, and proceeded to ask him return me back $40 for the previous day's expenses and he said he will pay me back immediately! As of writing, I have yet to receive a single cent from him.
However, this does not stop me from catching the 1st Night Race in Formula 1 Racing, at Singapore Pools, Sportbuzz @ Paradiz. Massa was leading the race, in pole position, when he was embroiled in the fuel pump incident which caused him to be penalized by 30 seconds. Moreover, an accident from Nelson Piquet Jr saw Alonso captalized on the safety car intervention to lead the race and win it ultimately, amid a late challenge from Rosberg.
Went to Jurong East Kbox with lena and friend but did not sing much. Throat could not hit the high pitch and therefore, was unable to sing. Felt so handicapped and could not sing Eason's song that I always like to sing.
Went home at 12.18am...
*I SMSed you, but you did not reply to my SMSes as usual. I expected that, but I thought that our love would be able to bridge this divide. Remember the song that goes "有没有爱能够重来，有没有人值得等待"... I am forgetting you as my heart begins to accept another person into it. As I look forward to the future, I wish you all the best, in what you do. It's time to let go now....
It was a busy day today for me. Sending out numerous emails, I was like facing the prospect of dying till I sent the last one and everything was fine!
The week went well for me: EXCO Meeting, football game (long long time since I went for one), and also started email a girl who I thought was a rare breed - beautiful and brainy.
Well... Many told me that the journey of life is never easy. I think that it depends from which perspective are we looking it at. For me, I believe that the basis to a good life is happiness. With happiness comes the joy and the stress free environment that everyone wishes for. This is not saying that happiness equals no stress, because to some, being happy is stressful!
Started to go to this website where you can know your neighbours or people leaving around you. You can go to www.wholivesnearyou.com and find out your neighbour.
Had a hangover on Friday night when I was at Boiler. Apparently, I down 2 Graveyard, offered by someone that I do not know, and then I started to act crazy.
The day started with me meeting Betty, Karen (Sera's friend), Rain and Sera. We went to Boiler and get our bottle, then I started going on the rocks with that bottle of Vodka. Then I ordered a Tiger Shuttle and down 3 glasses straight. Then...... I do not know what happen thereafter.
Got curfew now and that means no clubbing as of now.
Sorry for all the bad things I have done during my drinking binge. My sincere apologies
Tonight, going to eat KFC with my family. Want to eat the 'Hot Devil' drumlets.